WHAAAAAAT?

i've never posted anything for a really long time and all the others started posting so i thought it is about time for me to start posting something. anyway, my life has been super different for the past 5 months, i went off to scotland, started living on my own here. and, whoa. i learnt alot. i learnt so much that i didnt even realize time was passing so fast. 

but, so far, life has been good, it has not been the worst, i guess but, whatever happens, happens. thank god, ive been alright and everyone around me seems fine, but i can really tell we all miss our old days in school. this is the second year we are away from each other. and, i guess, we have grown our separate ways but, i am really glad we still talk to each other all the time. the others had been really busy with studies. i've been really busy with assignments. i really cant wait to be home soon. hot weather. yay -_-. its really windy here. two words to describe scotland, WET and WINDY. that is not a very good combination. 

so, anything interesting that happened to me lately?

well, nothing much. i feel pretty much like a loser everyday. AHAHA. but, i'm getting to like myself. 

okay, what was i talking about again? 

oohhh. so, to wei yeen, pat, shuk, farah, brenda, yee ling, leng. we probably have spent most of our everydays with other people and never really got to talk in person or do everyday stuff together but i'm glad to call you all my best buddies forever! YEAH! *throws hand in air* okay. im weirding myself out. EHEHHEHE. gotta go for dinner. 

feon-na

Haiii.

I'm pretty bad at titles. Haha.

So I was reading our past posts and realised the last time I actually blogged was about my first day at college. Which was really really long ago. More than a year :O Now I'm almost done with my first semester in uni, and finals in 2 weeks! Time flies.

The scary thing about time is that, it changes people. I think I'm different now. I feel different. I act different. I think differently too. I'm not sure if these differences are good or bad, but I hope I would eventually change for the better.

Here's a list

1. I cry very easily during movies now. I never used to cry in movies, because I think movies exaggerate. I didn't even cry watching The Notebook. A Walk to Remember, maybe just a bit? Didn't cry watching Koizora either. Remember how you girls always say I have a cold heart? Hahahaha.

2. I don't mind watching horror. Last time, I couldn't even take it when Farah tell her horror stories. It's like, "Girls do you wanna hear this scary story?" Me: *run*

3. I started putting on make up! Okay this is probably just a part of growing up and is definitely a normal change. Hahahaha.

4. I'm turning lame. Much, much, MUCH worse than before. I know its annoying to some people, but I just can't resist at times.

5. Clubbing. I used to be very against clubbing, I don't think I've told you about this before, but yeah. Now I actually find it fun. I'm still against smoking though. I will never date guys who smoke. NEVER. Guys if you are reading this, put that stick down and start living a healthy life.

6. Swearing and PMS. Swearing is bad, I know. Will work on it and stop. As for pms, I NEVER HAD PMS LAST TIME OKAY. Now my emotions fluctuate like a sin/cos graph with huge amplitudes. I can get really hyper, but most of the time I get depressed for no reason. Then I'll start ranting to shuk. Poor girl. Hahahahaha.

7. Studies. This is at least 90% why I'm so mad at myself these days. Yet I'm doing nothing to change it. I've been skipping lectures and classes, not bothered to do homework, easily distracted when the tutor is talking and doing assignments few days before it is due. I don't know why, I'm not motivated to study anymore. I've had this problem ever since uni started. I know its bad to be slacking, but even the thought of failing is not pushing me to study.

8. Last but never least, I'll never look at relationships the same way anymore. Period.

P.S. I wanted to have a cheerful post initially, but I'm tired of smiling and saying I'm fine.

hehe

GIRLSSSSSS I MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH SERIOUSLY
I just came to library to save my emails and wors then I remembered that Pat told me you girls updated the blog so I open and read. You know i'm reading it and I miss the old time so much. I read so long and then one of my friend walk past and smile, so i smile back. Guess what? I suddenly feel like i'm in a dream, I don't know where i am now. I was so into all of your post. :( I really miss you all :(

See you all soon... I LOVE ALL OF YOU!
Pat, Shuk, Wei Yeen, Farah, Yee Ling, Feon-Na and Ee Leng :)

2nd Sunday of May.

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mommas! :) (yep, a day late)

Anyway, yesterday was mother's day and my bros and I had planned to cook for my Mum. Well, the plan was: me - dessert, 2nd bro - main, 1st bro - side/drinks. So, I decided to make a no-bake cheesecake. Hehe. Did I mention that i suck at cooking/baking? Yes, I know, imma be the loveliest girlfriend/wife/mum. :P I've already tried making it before. This was my second time. Well, Brenda, Yeeling and I tried making it. :P It didn't set that time because that recipe didn't include Gelatin powder and later on I was told that in order to make it set I had to use Gelatin powder. (Well, there are some cheesecake recipes which are no-bake and do not require Gelatin powder. Meh..) So, at 11pm the night before, I started my cheesecake making. Yes, 11pm! Okay, I suck at telling stories. Hahaha. Okay, let me tell you about the first part of my Saturday.

11am - reservations for Dim Sum @ Jaya Palace, Wisma LYL. Mother's Day brunch with my cousins, aunt&uncle, brothers. Mannn, I was so stuffed! But it was satisfying. :B

LOOKIE AT THE CUSTARD BUN.

Okay, then we went to NSK to get some groceries for steamboat at night to celebrate mother's day with my grandma and other aunt&fam. NSK groceries are cheap okayy. And it's like 24/7. Yeahh, so after eating we had to cleaning up and then my bro and I went to get stuff for tmrw. (I forgot to bring the ingredient list to NSK -.-) 

Ah yes, back to the story above. I started at 11 and ended at 1.30am. I am that bad. Hahaha. This time wasn't as bad as the first time but I put it in the freezer for longer and well, it set lah! :}

Aglio Olio with Prawns, Capsicum, Cherry Tomatoes, Mushrooms and Cod Fish by the side. Jacob's Creek Sparkling White Wine.

Yummy, ain't it? :)

2nd bro and Mum.

1st bro and Mum.

Top Left: Mama and I (do we look alike? o.O). Top Right: My gift! It's a mini book! (took my 4 hours...@@)
Bottom left: My cheesecake! (It was kinda melting. :S) Bottom right: FOOD.

All the pics are stolen from my bro's instagram except the second last one. :P

Overall, it was a good day! (and fattening). Nothing beats spending a nice day with your loved ones. :)

Oh, you know what, I was actually pretty hesitant on posting things like this. Idk why. I don't really like putting my personal life out in the open. Weird considering I was the one who decided to make this blog together. Hmm, how did I do anyway? :)

xx,

trish.

skydiving :D

This convo just happened between me and Wei Yeen on whatsapp :D

WY: Every stupid thing is fascinating when you're studying
ME: Yes yes. Even the clouds omg. I was having a cloud moment this morning.
WY: The clouds are nice today! Its like. Fluffy!
ME: I was thinking what shape the cloud is. I saw a human sliding and a forever alone face but the cloud was fading the longer i stared at it. Then i was thinking what if i fell through the clouds. How would it feel? Then the thought trailed on....
WY: I think you'll get all wet.
ME: Like how's thee feeling. Do I fall faster/slower? Turbulence?
WY: I remember watching cartoons with people sitting on clouds, jumping from one to another.
ME: Yes yes! We should skydive one day! Through a cloud :)
WY: Yess!! But can we breathe? Its like, so high up.
ME: Ahahaha. I don't know. I hope so. I think can la. People skydive all the time. Maybe we need a O2 tank! Aahahhahaha
WY: OMG AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! If we carry an O2 tank we'll fall faster. Heavier weight.
ME: Ahahah. Funner. Fall faster. The thrill! Maybe a small one la. Cuz we won't be so high for too long. Acceleration at 9.81 m/s.
WY: Then from the sky it'll bring us deep down into the ocean. Continue scuba diving.
ME: AHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Parachute la!! AHAHAHHAHAHAHA This convo is getting funny!
WY: You started with the O2 tank! We could use the tank underwater.

have a great day! :) girls, we do need to skydive into a cloud. and scuba dive :D
-shuk

My thoughts

Gosh, i really dont know how to start.
Here goes...

Its not about what people want from you. Its about what you want to do and when you're happy doing it, you share it with the people you love. If they're not happy with it, its their problem. You tried your best, you worked hard. If the outcome is what you think is shit, then its not your fault because its your own effort

Pressure is good and it keeps you going and working

Dont complain when gaining knowledge otherwise the knowledge won't sink in

You set a goal, go for it! If you've worked hard, tried your best, didnt achieve what you wished for that's perfectly okay because you learned a lot during the process and life goes on so you can always set a new goal and try harder at your own pace.

No matter whatever the situation is, do not lose yourself.

The only person who can help you is yourself.

You're happy when you choose to be happy

Sometimes you just need to go away and breathe a new air. There are many things you can do in this world.

It's okay not to be okay. Keep calm and carry on.

No one is ever ready for their papers even me.

Just keep working and do your best. 

Well done on making it this far. You did a great job.

Follow your heart because your heart beats for you and it knows you best and what's best for you.

Well anyway, enough with that now. I have finally sorted my universities out. Initially I received 4 conditional offers from UCL, Newcastle, Nottingham and Bath. I had trouble choosing which ones as my firm and insurance choice. Spoke to my parents and tutors about it and finally I made up my mind. I am taking Newcastle as my firm and Nottingham as my insurance. Why? Because initially I wanted to go to Newcastle because I like the campus university and the living cost is not that high and since I want to do engineering, Nottingham uni is an engineering school so there you go. I know its a bit of a bum i turned UCL down but I have a feeling that I won't be happy studying there for more than 2 years because the living expenses are ridiculous, its not a campus university so you wont get a proper university experience and pressure. It is a good university because of its reputation and ranking but i want to be in an environment where i know i can study better and happier and i can gain knowledge better for future use instead of being too academic and in the end its just about the grades.
Other than that I have some experiences that I'd love to share but will do when I see my girls. ;) 

Farah Alya Ali

ps. These are just my thoughts and I'm not wrong having them in my mind

Expectations.

I feel that people are setting the bar reaaalllyy high for me. My parents especially. They're expecting me to do really well for my A-levels but I know damn well that I won't be able to achieve what they want. Hell! I'm just trying to get a minimum of BCC. My dad even went like "Maybe you'll even change your mind and go back to medical." They seriously think that I'm well prepared for this exam. The truth is, I'm afraid I disappoint them. I just don't want them to feel disappointed when they see my results :( I tend to disappoint people a lot. I'm losing interest in everything now.

i really need help :(

shuk.

latest obsessions..

HI!

Its been a looongggg time! I know :) My exams are coming up in less than a week and i finish June 22 then I start uni in early July!! Time friggin' FLIES!!

Ever since tumblr (tomblr) i became a full-time fangirl. yes its bad but jkgasdhfkashbfkafk i don't care! so here's the list of my latest obsessions :D

I've always been obsessed with my fav bands so we can leave them out of the list ;) but i shall just put a photo of my all time favourite band - ALL TIME LOW! :D

yess they're posing with bananas in their underwear and this is a really old picture. i love them :)

Then i became infected with one direction infection. it was unexpected and i hated myself for loving them so much at one time but i learned to accept that i do. so they're now my BABIES :D

and i also started watching SUPERNATURAL more than a year ago. ALL THESE FEEEEELSSS!! you people have to watch it! 7 seasons and it never fails to make me have all the feels ever existent!!

i watch doctor who too! but if i were to post every band and tv show i watch, this post will be SHIT ASS LONG! so lets just have one of each category here :)

After watching thor, I FELL HEELS OVER HEAD FOR LOKI. I MUST BE OUT OF MY MIND! BUT I DID!! I LOVE LOKI SO MUCH IT!! look at my tomblr  dashboard!

he may be evil but he was misunderstood and betrayed! my poor baby :(

so after falling for loki, i fell for the actor who played loki! THOMAS WILLIAM HIDDLESTON!

this man is so attractive! he's british, speaks french, greek, latin, spanish and who knows what else!! :D

here's a more decent picture of all time low :D

they saved my life many times together with the maine! :) okay i'll post a photo of the maine too :D

you guys also have to download the avengers OST! its really reallyyy good!! :D :D one of my favourites on the OST is unbroken by black veil brides and I'm alive by shinedown :)

and before i go, GOOD LUCK TO ALL A-LEVEL STUDENTS TAKING THE EXAMS! WE'LL GET THROUGH THIS AND PARTY HARD! :)

I miss our gang. I miss everyone :(

byeee!!
-shuk :)

Lost.

Hello everybody :)

It's been months years since I update this blog. D: I guess everyone is busy with college and exams. I'm currently sitting for my A2 and I'm stress + sad. I don't know. Mixed emotions I have here :'( I'm not ready for my papers, parents been pressuring on me what course I'm taking after A-levels. I can't make up my mind. I don't know what I want to study or what I like.

I just can't wait for my exams to over, so I get to PARTY WITH MY GIRLS !!! Going on a road trip with them (if possible), sleepover :). Oh, I just remember, my boyfriend gave me a new nickname, 'chicken ass', apparently I talk non-stop and I always ask him silly and foolish questions. but I'm just curious. And I never understand his 'sick' jokes apparently. I always laugh at the wrong timing. Its so awkward.

I've learned something recently, appreciate what you have, especially YOUR FAMILY.  No point regretting in the future. Don't compare yourself with others and don't be jealous of others. Make your own stories :)

 I think that's all, just a short post, need to get back to revision. 

 I HATE MAKING DECISIONS!! I DON'T KNOW IF I'LL REGRET ONE DAY FOR WHAT I'VE CHOSEN :(  

" Time is priceless. You can spend it. But you can't keep it. Once you've lost it, you can never get it back"  

Time flies.


- l e N g -

nostalgia.

HEY GIRLS,

It's like 2am and i'm so tired. I just went through our blog. Well, not exactly everything but i started at the beginning! The poem post is funny. I never realised how good our poems were until now. :P And there were a few posts where I actually giggled. Especially Feon's posts. Gah, you guys should take a trip back to memory lane soon too. And, we should revive this blog! It has so many memories in it.

Prom '10

I added this photo cause all of us look nice. And it's so hard to find recent nice photos of all 8 of us. Which is so sad. :(

Good luck to Farah, Shuk Yin and Ee Leng for your upcoming A2! <333333
And to everyone else who's sitting for A2 as well! All the best!

Can't wait for June/July when everyone is free and back! Bonding time pleaseeeeeeeeee.

Ps. I love you.     Hahahaha, no I'm kidding. I just couldn't resist. What I was supposed to say was that I changed the blog skin. Very lazily. This time is memang in blogger. Hahaha. But I was getting tired of the orange.

xx,
trish.