Monday, May 2, 2011


It has been ages since i last blogged. Been hooked on tumblr for so long. But no, I haven't forgotten this blog :)

Its May now. 4 months since I started college at MCKL. 4 months! See how fast time flies? By now, you'd think I've gotten used to it right? Well, I havent. Just so you know. I've been having drastic mood swings there. I could be super hyper one moment and the next, depressed. I miss everyone in high school. I miss us! That's not my only problem. You know, by this time, many have already thought about plans for the future. I should be thinking about them too. You see, O used to think that I'll be a dentist in the future but after a while, I realized that it isn't what I really want. Its just something my parents want me to do. I don't want to do something that will bore the shit out of me! NO WAY!! I always thought that I would end up doing something in the science stream. Now, the more I think about it, I'm starting to doubt that. Maybe that's not really what I want?

Its really frustrating you know? Time to think is almost up! Once A-levels is done, I will have to decide! Its already MAY! Not much time left! I'm really confused. Need someone to talk to. There are many cases where parents tell children that they didn't plan for what they are. Like they planned for something else but never actually manage to reach their goal? I don't want to be one of those parents. The parent with a broken dream. I want to be those parents where my future children will look up to and be inspired that I actually got to do what I want. You get what I mean? At the same time, I don't want a boring job! My parents want me to go for Medicine/Dentistry/Law. I don't want either of them now. I did try to tell my mum. But I think she has already decided to make me go for those. Everything else to her isn't professional! But why??

I really need to talk to someone who will understand me and give some advice :) I know, I know, i used to be the one giving advice. But now, it is my turn to seek for some :) If only I take my own advice!! haha.


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